Expectations

and once again, they've gotten to me again.

So, where does the quote "Accept and expect positive things and that is what you will receive" come from? Who on earth thought of it? Must be some hyper of a optimistic with no real sense of 'what's life'. I'm not saying optimism is bad, but everything in moderation. I mean, expect positive things and that is what you will receive? I've been expecting too many positive things and all I get in return at most of the times, at best, lukewarm. So what for hype myself up and do all these mental psychoing to make myself believe I'm living in this bubblegum world where people are always happy? I don't get it. Haha. Maybe I'm more of a skeptic than a believer.

Seriously, this whole thing about expectations has been bugging me for the longest time. Yes, we do have expectations. It's good to have expectations. But what for hurt yourself with expectations? Some may argue "well, you were prolly carrying false expectations." Hmm. I self-evaluated. I cant say for the times that has passed long ago. For this most recent one, I am darn sure I wasnt carrying false expectations. My expectations were bloody damn well "expectable" what! Haha. All I can say is that I was disappointed.

And so, some will say "well, adjust your expectations as you go along". I guess that's the only thing I can do right now.

Yes, so much for being happy and hyped up. Now, I just feel like an even emptier vessel drifting...drifting...drifting...