comfort

comes in many forms.

it was almost instantaneously washed away. it wasnt as if i wasnt aware of it anymore, it wasnt as if i wasnt hurt anymore, it wasnt as if i dont feel anything anymore. but, i feel alright now.


"Though you have made me see troubles, many and bitter, you will restore my life again; from the depths of the earth you will again bring me up." Psalm 71:20 (NIV)

finally managed to get myself together. no, actually i didnt. it wasnt my doing that i got myself together. but yup, i did. i had to no matter what, because there are too much on the line. well, class went ok i guess. at some moments i could feel the boys measuring me up, looking at what more they can do to push me over the edge. but they were ok i guess? haha. well, i think i will only know during the next lesson i take them. for a moment, i wanted to give up. haha. i really didnt know what to do for a moment. that the activity got them so hyped up (and yes, noisy). i didnt really know how to go about "quietening" them up, because one part of me didnt want to i guess. i dont know. it's mixed feelings now. i know i didnt do incredibly well. in fact, i dont know how i performed. haha. i will really only know during the next class.

haha. i guess it's the night. i am feeling more defeated than i was in the afternoon. ah well. just, just try again lor. i guess that's all i can do. golly i feel so inept, so inept in understanding the boys and managing them. ah well.