acquiring knowledge

this is what the Institute tries to teach us. That we have to nurture a generation that knows how to acquire knowledge for themselves. and for us to teach them that, we must first be good knowledge acquirers ourselves, right?


right.



and guess what? I'm such a fine knowledge acquirer, whether i actually was consciously trying to do so or not. good thing? bad thing?


Sometimes I wonder, what's the point of having people around to talk to you anymore? especially when the knowledge that you hope you didnt acquire yourself actually gets transmitted to you, but doesnt.
how disappointing, isnt it?


yes, very disappointing indeed. and then, what does disappointment breed? further disappointment. doubt. uncertainty. some will say, what about hope? Hmmm. on good days, i think hope does peek out a little. trying to make things better. Hope tells you to give the benefit of doubt, Hope gets her good friend Trust to come along too.

but when the cycle repeats itself again, Hope gets doubly crushed by disappointment, and everything is just further reinforced negatively. Oh, and what happened to Hope's friend? Oh yes, she's still around somewhere. just somewhere, got to go look for her. Oh yes, it's not that she's left; she's here somewhere. Just where? hmmm. I think the shadows of disappointment just obscured her. But yes, she's here. i've got to make it clear, she's here. she's not like Hope who got momentarily crushed and disappeared for the moment.



and so, i ask myself, what will come out of a generation of knowledge acquirers? an Age of Skepticism in human relations? in Trust and Honesty?


i dont know.
right now,
i dont know what to think.


sigh.