i can survive this

am trying to tell myself that. no, i know i will survive it, just a matter of what happens to the me at the end of it. i am just trying to convince myself that i will survive this decently.

lets just try this. positivity! (yea right.)

God: “I love that story, Noah and the Ark. You know a lot of people miss the point of that story. They think its about God’s wrath and anger”.

Evan’s Wife: “What is the story about then? the Ark?”

God: “Well I think its a love story, about believing in each other. You know the animals showed up in pairs, they stood by each other side by side. Just like Noah and his family.”

Evan’s Wife: “But my husband says God told him to do it. What do you do with that?”

God: “Sounds like an opportunity, let me ask you something… If someone prays for patience, you think God gives him patience? Or does He give them the opportunity to be patient? If they pray for courage, does God give them courage? Or does He give them the opportunity to be courageous? If some one prayed for their family to be closer, you think God zaps them with warm fuzzy feeling or does He give the opportunities for them to love each other?”

yup. feel it prick, just gdi FEEL IT ALREADY. like really. SERIOUSLY! ARGH!!!!!!!! can i have someone to blame, someone to get mad at? maybe that will make it easier. but i doubt. cos nothing really changes even so.

seriously GDI!~ ARGH! i just want to implode right now. damnit.

ARGH!